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The Serenity Prayer:
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
That's how an AA meeting begins after reading the twelve steps and promises. I am not an alcoholic, but I abuse alcohol and it started affecting my school life, so I went to AA to save myself and my friendships.
I drank 3 times in my high school career because I honestly had no desire to drink. I knew I could have fun without alcohol to rely on.
Then in college, in my freshman year when I was in a relationship with Ethan, I was sexually assaulted by a classmate. I developed PTSD and eventually Ethan and I broke up. The summer after my freshman year I lost myself and started drinking.
Sophomore year rolls around, and Fall Quarter starts and I am partying every weekend, drinking and hooking up with random guys to forget what happened to me.
I then got in a relationship with Drake, Ethan's friend. He was nice until one night he raped me. Eventually that relationship ended. I stopped drinking, and got into an eating disorder treatment center for Winter Quarter.
When I got back to school for Spring Quarter I started drinking again. I stopped over the summer.
It is now Fall Quarter of my Junior year and I started drinking again after my best friend broke up with me.
I won't go into details, but my ex sat me down and said I had a real problem with drinking. I knew he was right. And that day I went to my first AA meeting.
I was scared to say the least. It was all new to me. Most of the people there were hard core alcoholics, whereas I only have a problem drinking in a party situation. But I could relate to some of the stories, and have been going to AA every day I could since.
It's only been 5 days since I started going, and I've gone to 4 meetings so far. I am sad about this because it means I am giving up drinking, which means I can't go to parties with my friends.
Good news, is there's a young people group on fridays and sundays, so I will meet fellow students who go to my college who can't go out and drink. I am excited to meet people my age, and have new friends to hang out with who don't go out every weekend and get wasted.
This time in my life, alcohol is not something I need. I tell my story because I hope that anyone who has gone through anything that I've been through to try their best not to follow in my footsteps.
If anyone reading this is struggling with alcohol issues, rape, PTSD, Eating Disorders feel free to reach out. I can tell you more about the mistakes I have made and help you avoid some of the pit falls.
XOXO Anna
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
That's how an AA meeting begins after reading the twelve steps and promises. I am not an alcoholic, but I abuse alcohol and it started affecting my school life, so I went to AA to save myself and my friendships.
I drank 3 times in my high school career because I honestly had no desire to drink. I knew I could have fun without alcohol to rely on.
Then in college, in my freshman year when I was in a relationship with Ethan, I was sexually assaulted by a classmate. I developed PTSD and eventually Ethan and I broke up. The summer after my freshman year I lost myself and started drinking.
Sophomore year rolls around, and Fall Quarter starts and I am partying every weekend, drinking and hooking up with random guys to forget what happened to me.
I then got in a relationship with Drake, Ethan's friend. He was nice until one night he raped me. Eventually that relationship ended. I stopped drinking, and got into an eating disorder treatment center for Winter Quarter.
When I got back to school for Spring Quarter I started drinking again. I stopped over the summer.
It is now Fall Quarter of my Junior year and I started drinking again after my best friend broke up with me.
I won't go into details, but my ex sat me down and said I had a real problem with drinking. I knew he was right. And that day I went to my first AA meeting.
I was scared to say the least. It was all new to me. Most of the people there were hard core alcoholics, whereas I only have a problem drinking in a party situation. But I could relate to some of the stories, and have been going to AA every day I could since.
It's only been 5 days since I started going, and I've gone to 4 meetings so far. I am sad about this because it means I am giving up drinking, which means I can't go to parties with my friends.
Good news, is there's a young people group on fridays and sundays, so I will meet fellow students who go to my college who can't go out and drink. I am excited to meet people my age, and have new friends to hang out with who don't go out every weekend and get wasted.
This time in my life, alcohol is not something I need. I tell my story because I hope that anyone who has gone through anything that I've been through to try their best not to follow in my footsteps.
If anyone reading this is struggling with alcohol issues, rape, PTSD, Eating Disorders feel free to reach out. I can tell you more about the mistakes I have made and help you avoid some of the pit falls.
XOXO Anna