“Call me old fashioned, but I actually take relationships seriously.”
I met this guy Carter, through Joey on the last day of orientation. We instantly bonded and talked for hours on meaningful things. For the first couple weeks of school we were practically inseparable. Talking until midnight sometimes. And each night, he would give me a hug, and they got longer and more intimate as time passed by. See I didn't know he had a girlfriend back home until week 2. By that time we both already had feelings for each other.
TIP- Leave high school relationships in high school.
“I don’t want to end it over a text, just wait until winter break, and I will do it then,” he told me.
It’s not like Carter and I had done anything, no! Especially since he had a girlfriend. It’s just, there was something there, between us, and we knew it.
As our friendship strengthened, I opened up to Carter. I told him every defense I had. And I have a lot of defenses! And better yet, I have trust issues, so it was a big deal for me to open up to Carter about, well, everything! Carter opened up to me as well, and I appreciated it.
Things seemed to be going well between Carter and I, just being friends, until the end of week two or three when we all stayed in a friends dorm watching Doctor Who, and Carter and I ended up under one of the raised beds, sleeping together. And no, I don't mean sex, I mean just falling asleep together.
We weren't cuddling at first. In fact his head was at one end of the bed and mine was at the other. But as the night progressed I woke up to feeling a sensation on my leg.
I felt Carter’s hands going up and down it. Now I’ had no experience with guys, so I didn't know what to do. I didn’t want to make a scene, so I stayed quiet. I readjusted myself, but that gave Carter more space for him to go further up. His hand was trailing up my leg, and reached the end of my shorts, but he kept going, all the way to my panty line, and then went back down to my ankle. I shivered from the foreign feeling. He then sat up, and so did I. He smiled at me, and moved so he was lying beside me. He put his arm around me, we were spooning, and I was in and out of a daze for the rest of the night.
Did that mean he had chosen me over his girlfriend? I thought in my head as Carter’s hands moved again.
This time to my chest area. Carter’s hand went across my stomach next as I silently thanked myself for not eating much that day. He didn’t do anything but feel me up and down, but it was big for me since I never let anyone touch me. I mean I didn’t even hug my family!
So that was my first experience with a guy and in the morning I felt guilty and so did he.
TIP- If he has a girlfriend back home and there are feelings between you two, stop hanging out together for a while until he breaks up with his girlfriend.
Needless to say Carter and I went our separate ways after a while. It hurt. We were really good friends, and things just got too complicated. My roommate Amy was amazing through it all. We had grown to be best friends. Of course weeks later I heard his girlfriend dumped him, and then he started this casual fling with one of my friends in one of my classes.
XOXO Anna
TIP- Leave high school relationships in high school.
“I don’t want to end it over a text, just wait until winter break, and I will do it then,” he told me.
It’s not like Carter and I had done anything, no! Especially since he had a girlfriend. It’s just, there was something there, between us, and we knew it.
As our friendship strengthened, I opened up to Carter. I told him every defense I had. And I have a lot of defenses! And better yet, I have trust issues, so it was a big deal for me to open up to Carter about, well, everything! Carter opened up to me as well, and I appreciated it.
Things seemed to be going well between Carter and I, just being friends, until the end of week two or three when we all stayed in a friends dorm watching Doctor Who, and Carter and I ended up under one of the raised beds, sleeping together. And no, I don't mean sex, I mean just falling asleep together.
We weren't cuddling at first. In fact his head was at one end of the bed and mine was at the other. But as the night progressed I woke up to feeling a sensation on my leg.
I felt Carter’s hands going up and down it. Now I’ had no experience with guys, so I didn't know what to do. I didn’t want to make a scene, so I stayed quiet. I readjusted myself, but that gave Carter more space for him to go further up. His hand was trailing up my leg, and reached the end of my shorts, but he kept going, all the way to my panty line, and then went back down to my ankle. I shivered from the foreign feeling. He then sat up, and so did I. He smiled at me, and moved so he was lying beside me. He put his arm around me, we were spooning, and I was in and out of a daze for the rest of the night.
Did that mean he had chosen me over his girlfriend? I thought in my head as Carter’s hands moved again.
This time to my chest area. Carter’s hand went across my stomach next as I silently thanked myself for not eating much that day. He didn’t do anything but feel me up and down, but it was big for me since I never let anyone touch me. I mean I didn’t even hug my family!
So that was my first experience with a guy and in the morning I felt guilty and so did he.
TIP- If he has a girlfriend back home and there are feelings between you two, stop hanging out together for a while until he breaks up with his girlfriend.
Needless to say Carter and I went our separate ways after a while. It hurt. We were really good friends, and things just got too complicated. My roommate Amy was amazing through it all. We had grown to be best friends. Of course weeks later I heard his girlfriend dumped him, and then he started this casual fling with one of my friends in one of my classes.
XOXO Anna